Wouldn't it be fun if I could have a career in music?

It's not realistic, though.

I just want to be a bum.

Sometimes the flaws are my favorite parts.

They really make you.. you.

Chin up

Sometimes I wish I could disappear. Maybe go somewhere I've never been. By myself. Alone.

Or maybe not. That could be a terrible idea.

I feel like a lot could be accomplished if I had 24 solid hours of my own. There's so much I have yet to discover of myself and I usually find it when I am alone. I find myself up at these late hours for that very reason.

I really like singing, playing the guitar, and re-teaching myself piano, but I hate doing it around other people. I also like drawing and painting on occasion. I don't like it when other people stick their noses into my business.

Something I've figured out: I absolutely get nauseated when others try to force something on me until I'm sick of it. However, when given the chance to find it myself, with it being my own idea, I tend to love it. I think it's funny, and probably annoying.

I don't really know why I've had the urge to write in this. Maybe it makes me feel better because it's my own. Or maybe I just wish someone would really listen, but I don't have that someone anywhere near me, or maybe at all.

Tomorrow I intend to venture out to the beach with my dog with hopes of finding something pretty to photograph. I absolutely love photography, and I wish I had more time for it.

Edit: Please note that my few previous posts were delusional. I must have been out of my mind :)

I am tired of waiting. 

I am more than ready for the future. I can't wait for everything I've ever wanted... not saying that college isn't something I wanted. 

But I am ready for that dream job. I'm ready to get married, have an apartment with my husband, our ferret, and my cat. I want the dog of my dreams. I want to move to Colorado. I want children. I can't wait to be one of those cute pregnant ladies that I always admire and envy. I want a life and a family to call my own.

I am not patient.

And I can't jump the gun on these things.

I am so ready. And when the time comes, it will be so perfect.

I have a new obsession... it's called Finnish Lapphund.

SO CUTE!!! As soon as I'm out of college, I'm traveling to Canada to get one :)

Tomorrow is going to be one of the saddest days of my life... :(

I wish I knew how to play the violin.

This weather is so amazingggg...but it would be even more amazing if the sun would shine. I absolutely love dressing warm and taking walks when the air is crisp and cold but the warm sun is shining on my face.

I wish there were a place that I could sing without anyone hearing. It would make me feel much more accomplished and satisfied. I don't know why.

I want to carve a pumpkin, but it would get smashed :(

My kidneys feel better, but I have a feeling they aren't actually healed.

I want to go some place I haven't been in a long time, like Colorado or Canada. It would be nice to go by myself and get lost for a while. But I'd get lonely.

I have so many projects and things I should be working on, but I'm not. I just want to enjoy this October weather and take time to heal physically and give my brain a rest.

There really is no purpose for this blog. I have no idea why I even started it. ahaha.